I haven’t really, wholeheartedly posted here in months. College is definitely a place in which you discover new things, but you also find yourself consumed by coursework, the dreaded job search… all while trying to stay sane by finding some cool people to make the whole experience enjoyable.
Whatever college is, it will all be over for me in May as I am graduating.
I’m not sure where this blog fits anymore. It used to be that in my spare time, for fun, as a hobby, whatever it was or is, I would work on this site. I would blog. I would create things. I have spent inordinate amounts of time to create things for strangers on the Internet and it was fun.
I’ve realized that now it is more of a chore to do so than it is a pastime, and I’m not certain where this leaves this site or this blog. I think, that at the very least, I will leave what I have made online. I’m not sure, however, if I will ever make anything new again, if I will ever blog here again, or… any number of things.
This site has been in existence since prior to Facebook and Twitter taking off, and served a purpose that perhaps a blog used to – sharing your life experiences with the Internet. Now, I do that via Facebook and Twitter.
Secondly, as conflicted as I am about this, I’m not sure I am completely comfortable posting in this public manner any more. It is the extremely unfortunate reality that anything you write or publish online becomes searchable and is displayed alongside your name should anyone search for it. It is also the unfortunate reality that even though I have never written anything that I feel ashamed of, others may not feel the same – and the consequences of that may affect me in very real, very bad ways. I may not get interviews over it. I may not get jobs over it. People are very strange… even subconsciously, a bias may develop over something as inconsequential to the job environment as what I wrote on the Internet when I was 15 years old and more worried about the school dance and band camp than my career.
So I have removed everything that I have written that I am capable of removing. It’s still out there, as anything that ever gets published on the Internet is, but I have chosen to remove it from whence it came and as such I hope that it will slowly fade away. This is a new chapter to my life and as with anyone, I am not the same person that I was when I first started this site, when I first ventured out on to the Internet, and I want to move on.
This site has been around since June 8, 2004 at 6:34 PM. I’ve had a good run. I’m starting a new chapter.